Just trying to get away from everyone. People really suck. Michael's gone flying and I know it makes me a realkly bad girlfriend ( yes GIRLFRIEND :d) But i miss him so much and I feel lost without him. God I'm OBSESSING ABOUT HIM! Obsessing about another damn guy again.. oh well you know me! damn.. i don't even know me so how the hell could you know?

confusing? yup... right.. well i'm in the IT room at the moment. Michael's gone flying ... yeah i know I've said that already but if you don't mind, I want to fucking DWELL ON IT FOR A BIT.

Sorry... really not in a good mood. I even went mad at hannah cos i COULD have gone flying if it wasn't for her. Actually it's mainly my own fault for being to chicken shit to say 'hey, i wanna come' when they were all going. Cat even asked me to come and I just acted like a freak in front of michael and they just went. The reason I'm mad at hannah is because she wouldn't go flying because paul wasn't going. So basically she's going to find paul and after walking around with them, I'd wander off on my own. Plus I'm really hungry so I'm gonna sit here and say whatever. I'm not following them around.

God this is crazy! How can someone you love hurt you so much without even realising it? Okay so I don't love him but I really like him and care about him. It's weird because I when I'm in love with someone and the feeling's not mutaul, it really really hurts. But then when I'm with someone and the feeling is mutaul (rare as fuck let me tell you) it hurts even more cos you just want to be with them all the time and you know you can't. Vhrist I haven't even kissed the guy yet.. which yeah, means that I really like him but whatever. It's so stupid. The relationship's stupid. I'm stupid. All I keep doing is moaning to hannah and anyone else who will listen about how weird it is me being with him. I know I should be happy but I just can't be.

Well yeah.. so this hasn't really got anything to do with DA but I needed to talk and opendiary doesn't work on here (damn school filter.) So now.. I think I'll get my lunch then come back here and moan some more. Joy, Ohh yay I'm going to be pissed at everyone now lol joyyyyyyyyyy....

one last thing.. i really like chris, i think he likes me but GOD does he act like a jerk sometimes. I can't stay angry at him and i should after the way he treats me sometimes. He's not a bad guy, not one of those kinda people. but i feel ... lost. That's it. That's all I can say.

God help me..